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Twerk Class 4/6/19
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Twerk Class 4/6/19
Let's twerk it!
It’s getting harder and harder to keep a smile on my face. My chest is getting tighter and it’s harder to breath each day. I didn’t think that I would feel so much pain and emptiness in my life. The moment I left Nashville three years ago was when I started to feel this way. Never would I have thought I’d let a man make me feel the way I do today. The man I loved for eight years broke my heart. Since then I have not been the same. I feel like a hypocrite because I was always telling everyone to stay strong and everything will be okay when I was not okay myself. No one would have known that I was empty and broken inside because I always wanted to be the strong and positive role model for everyone. For the past three years I have held it together and I felt okay but it is starting to hit me more the past few months. The more people I meet, the more I feel like I want to be alone. There are very few who I can truly be myself around. You truly know who I am if you have seen every side of me. It is harder and harder for me to let my walls down for new relationships and friendships. I feel like I am in a great place in life but there is still something missing. I have a great family, friends, a job, a car, a home but why do I feel this way? Do I feel like that because I am not fully healed from the past? Is it because I am used to being able to book a flight and leave whenever I want but now I feel guilty for even taking an extra day off of work? Is it because the man who hurt me made me feel like I was never good enough as a person and that I would never succeed in life? I know I will succeed but when others come into your life and prove that they are all almost the same you start to wonder why am I not good enough? It is harder for me to trust people because the man who I loved for eight years still contacts me and lies to me. I don’t believe his lies but it makes me wonder how people can sleep with all their lies and how they treat people. Who can I really trust? It is getting harder for me because I find myself getting attached to people who always disappear or don’t want me. It is getting harder for me because I am having a hard time finding time for myself. I always tell myself to surround myself with positivity but it seems like I have been bringing in negative energy lately. I know that I have a lot of amazing people in my life who will listen and be there for me but blogging is the best way for me to finally let things out because I do not feel comfortable talking to anyone. It already feels great typing this out. I know that I am not the only one who feels this way. I wanted to let the strong independent people who are trying to hold it together know that everything will be okay. You don’t have to please everyone. It is okay to let the world see your mistakes and your tears. We need to learn to accept and let go. I will find myself. I will make time for myself. I will be happy. I will be okay. Everything will fall into place and the pain will go away. I will accept and let go starting today.
Remember those days when we couldn’t wait to be an adult? Well here we all are living the adult life and I’m wondering where the time has gone! Sometimes I wish things would slow down a bit. Everyone who knows me, knows that I always plan things at least 2 months ahead of time. The days and months are going by so quick. I’ve been thinking about life a lot. I’m someone who likes to have a plan and stick with it but that’s not how things work in life. It’s crazy how fast things can change. I would have never thought I’d be where I am today. I am happy with my job, myself, and life. I wouldn’t be the strong woman I am today without the help of many people. Thank you to the guys who lied and cheated on me. Thank you to the guys who always put me down and made me feel like I wasn’t good enough. Thank you to the people who used me. Thank you to the people who always put my goals and dreams down. Thank you to these people because you all are the reasons why I am a strong woman. You are the reason why I know how to choose who to keep in my life and who to trust wisely. I pushed myself everyday not only for my family and friends who have always supported me from the beginning. For the people who made me feel like I wasn’t worth, I will not let you win. Never let the negative people win. Always strive to do better and move forward, not backwards. We aren’t perfect and life can get rough trying to be a strong independent person. It’s okay to accept help from those you trust. It’s okay to scream at the top of your lungs. It’s okay to cry and let it all out but at the end of the day you have to pick yourself up and keep going. Life is physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausting but things will only get better if you use the negatives to get you to the positives. Trust me; everything will be okay. Love yourself and make time for the people who deserve it. Good luck to the man who can actually break down my walls and get me to make time for you. 😂
The older I get the more I realize what I really deserve in life. You should always be humble and kind but know when not to take shit from anyone. There’s always a time where you need to put your foot down or you’ll never be happy. Stop trying to please others and don’t let them step all over you. The right people will stay in your life and the wrong ones won’t last. Don’t chase after them. The hardest thing to do is watch someone you want in your life walk away but it will be worth it in the end. They don’t belong in your life for a reason. All you gotta do is better yourself everyday to make those people (friends/exes/family) wish they kept you close. I believe that if someone never gave you a chance in the first place then they don’t deserve you at all. Work on yourself. That’s when I started to see things fall into place. I must say that I am in a good place in life right now but that doesn’t mean I will stop there. I will continue to improve myself physically, emotionally, and mentally everyday. Don’t give up or give into any negativity. Positivity and confidence is the key. Know your worth!
Man, life has been crazy busy. I haven’t blogged since last year. I guess it’s kind of a good thing since time flies by so quick everyday. A lot has changed since I’ve last blogged. New job and new me. I’ve been blessed. I decided to blog today because a lot of people have been reaching out to me for advice. I’ve noticed that there’s a lot of depressed and discouraged people out there. I’ve been meeting a lot of people who just want things to happen right away with relationships, goals, jobs, and everything and when it doesn’t happen they just give up. That’s not how things work. It takes years and determination for people to make things happen. For the relationship part, I’ve noticed that when you try or look too hard the right person won’t fall into your life. You gotta let things fall into place and not force it. When you force it you might end up settling with the wrong person. Stop thinking about things like “I’m getting old.” I joke all the time about how I have 5 years to find that man so my grandpa can walk me down the aisle but I am really in no rush. Life is too short to force something. Go explore the world and try new things you’ve never done. Maybe the right person isn’t coming into your life yet because you haven’t found yourself yet. Live life and let things come together. “Love yourself first and everything else falls into line.” I’ve also talked to people who have everything in life but still feel like there’s something missing and aren’t happy. It’s crazy how life works. You can have money, a family, house, and a career but still be depressed. How do we fix this? I don’t know. All I know is that you never know what someone is going through so you always need to be humble and kind. If someone is reaching out to you please don’t push them away. Give them a boost. Motivate them to want to wake up the next day. You never know what could happen. This blog is to reach out to everyone in the world. I am here for you, I want to make a difference, and want to help. Please reach out to me if you ever feel like you need someone to listen to you. Spread the word and share. Positive vibes only.
Wow it has been a hectic few months but I definitely wanted to start the New Year with a blog. I’ve been blessed with more ups than downs this year. Each year I’ve definitely stepped out of my comfort zone. I’ve traveled a lot more and did things I probably wouldn’t have a few years ago. I definitely want to check out Florida, Oklahoma, Texas, New York, Pennsylvania and Georgia. I want to explore all these states in 2017 and then start experimenting in different countries in 2018! I hope that you all have been achieving some type of goal on your list each year. What’s life if you aren’t trying new things and meeting new people? That’s what I realized is that life is too short to sit around. Travel the world and show the world what you got. Be the change. Create a bucket list and live your life. You will be happy with life, if you are happy with yourself. I hope you all have a great New Year and be safe out there. Cheers 2017! Bring it on!
Wow I cannot believe that 2015 is almost coming to an end. What an amazing year it has been! Every year I continue to achieve more then I plan to. Which is a good thing. You should always set high standards to challenge yourself. What is life without a challenge right? I hope you all have great goals for the year of 2016. I know I will definitely be traveling a lot. I hope to blog more and maybe even start a Vlog. It is crazy how time flies and how things can change in a flash. I have been blessed with so many opportunities this year. Some that even gave me the chance to make a difference in the lives of others. I hope that I continue to motivate others. There is nothing better then showing people that you can make anything happen. Life is so much better when you are positive. I once was a negative person who cared too much about what others thought but as I got older I realized that you won’t get anything out of life that way. The people who are judging you aren’t the ones living your life or paying your bills. I couldn’t be happier with the decisions I’ve made these past few years. I know that I will continue to rise to the top. If i can, I know you can 🙂 Don’t stop until you make it to the top! I could not ask for better people in my life. So many people coming in and out, but I have the right ones right by my side being the best support ever. Here’s to the ones who have lost hope. Keep pushing yourself to do better everyday and if you have already achieved your goals. Set bigger and better ones. Never give up! Don’t forget to smile and be thankful that you get to see another day. Don’t wait for the Change. Be the Change. Happy Holidays!
Stepping out of your comfort zone is not the easiest thing to do. The older I get the more I continue to step out of my comfort zone. After my trip to Nashville I’ve been asking myself what could have happened if I visited 3 years ago like I wanted to. It made me realize that I need to take bigger steps and stop holding back. You aren’t living life if you aren’t taking chances right? A lot of times we hesitate and question ourselves because we are scared that we are gonna fail or disappoint the ones we love. Don’t doubt yourself, just do it. It is better to live life knowing you tried than to be asking yourself the “What if” questions. “What if people don’t like me?” “What if I can’t financially do it?” “What if I don’t like it?” These are some basic questions we always ask ourselves when it comes to making decisions on moving, starting a new job, starting school and much more. I believe that everything happens for a reason so just choose a path and everything else will fall into place.My decisions continue to change as I get older. We have to step out of our comfort zone, even if it means being alone and thousands of miles away from family. Sometimes that is what is needed to realize that you can make it on your own. Don’t stop until you make it to the top.
The other day someone asked me if I had the chance to would I go back to the past or jump to the future? Honestly, I would choose to go to the future. Even if I could go back to the past to do things differently, I feel like whatever I’m trying to change still won’t work out. Things happen for a reason and no matter how many different times you try to change things there is a reason why it didn’t work out in the first place. If I could go to the future I will be able to see if I am currently making the right decisions now to get to where I want to be in life. I am truly blessed to have experienced so much in the past. I do not regret one moment even when I felt like giving up. All the bumps in life are what make me the strong person I am today. Giving up won’t help you become successful. Keep pushing and don’t look back to the past and think what if I did this differently? Look to the future and make the changes now, in the present. Choose the life you want to live. You can choose who and what you want to be in your future. Keep your head up and never give up. So let me ask you, if you had to choose, would you go back to the past or go to the future?